Reset Button

Who would have thought that I would get sick during the holiday. Yup I am so sick. I have fever and possibly pharyngitis (again). I just hate being sick, but then it's a good excuse to delay studying and doing other school stuff because of the reason: I'm sick. ^_^

But again I won't slack of because my grades are not so good. Lost my scholarship already and I'm not prepared to fail cause I promised my self I won't.

How nice it would be to have a reset button. Just yesterday I was sweating like crazy because my brother's mp4 won't turn on and I was afraid that my mom won't get me the laptop I wanted because the money would go to the repair of the said mp4 instead. Anyway lucky for me that the great mp4 had a reset button and everything went to normal without any data loss too.

How great it would be if we all had a reset button right? Then all those wasted time I had being idle would have been used for studying and I won't be at the edge of my seat fearing for the worst.

Ok. I'm being idle again, back to studying. I have to give more effort this time if I want to pass the dreaded course I chose. Darn it!

Ateneo de Davao Univeristy (ADDU)


This picture was taken last month (November) and I really like this pic. it shows that I have actually achieved one of my dreams and that is to visit ADDU. I have planned to visit ADDU when I was in Davao for our psychiatric affiliation but I was only able to visit my sister school when I came back to Davao for our medical examination.

being infront ADDU was a sense of accomplishment for me. Don't get me wrong I am a true blue Atenean. I have studied at Ateneo since high school. And if only I could already take care of myself and live alone during grade school then I would probably be studying in Xavier University Grade School (Ateneo de Cagayan). There's a lot of pride in me hehehe. But I do love my school. That's a fact.

I was about to write about my Davao experience but it's too lengthy and I'm a lazy bum hehehe. Anyway I wasn't really able to enter the campus since it's already dark and we were only there to buy some Pomelo from the sidewalk vendors infront of the school hahaha. Like we stopped at the side of the road (you can actually see my tita's car in the picture) and the vendors came to us (imagine that). We then decided to go out because we wanted to taste which vendor's pomelo is good (it was already more like eating if you ask me). The vendors really opened pomelos and gave each one of us. We then ofcourse bought a lot because the vendors would lose a lot because they really opened their products for us. I had a picture of the trash we left behind infront of Ateneo hahaha I am so bad.

Laptop Dilemma

I have wanted to get a laptop for so long. It’s already a proven fact that a laptop is a necessity and not just a want. A laptop is a need especially for a student nurse like me who constantly needs to be constantly updated and who need to research stuff.

I asked my Mom once if she could buy me one because my two laptops are unfortunately permanently out of order. To my dismay she asked what I need it for. We already have two computers in the house but I can’t really use them because I stay at a boarding house and it’s not time-efficient, not to mention cost-effective, to just come home to use the computer. Sure the school has computers and all but the laboratories open late and the computers are the library are constantly used by silly students who have no conscience and just use the computers there for opening their Friendster account. I understand that their tuition includes the use of the computers but it’s a library a place of learning not socializing.

I could also go to internet cafes but it would be such a hassle. Not to mention dangerous, an internet café is filled with strangers and possibly evil elements.

I asked my mom if I could bring my computer at home to the boarding house and she then told me that bringing a computer to the city would be difficult and all plus I had to pay for the additional electricity use. To my surprise she then told me that she would buy me a laptop instead. I was really overjoyed

I couldn’t sleep and I constantly keep on thinking about that laptop. I’m obsessed with the thought of actually having the laptop in my arms like it’s crazy. I’m already suffering; I’m in anguish having to wait for January to get my laptop.

Actually the waiting part is bearable but something awful came up. I have rummaged around the city for computer shops and it all came to two stores who had the laptops I want. One store had an installment plan but only had Neo laptops which is within my allotted budget. A Neo-Q Note Endura 540SLe to be exact:

Neo notebooks to be honest are cheap. So cheap that it makes you wonder if it would last a month or so. I have surfed the net and to my big dismay my speculations where right. Neo Enduras doesn’t endure at all. Some Neo customers had bought Neos and it only lasted for 8 months. There are a lot of complaints about it and the customer service is very poor. Like I am praying and hoping that my mom would reconsider and won’t buy me a Neo.

I am hoping that she buys me an Asus X51R series which doesn’t only have a faster processor (Intel Dual Core 1.86 Ghz) and many more superior features. It beats Endura on almost all aspect and it only is php 7,200 more expensive. If you ask me, I would rather buy a well-known brand from a doubtful one. But if ever I get a Neo, I would be sad but at least I get a laptop right? I’ll just have to be very careful with it and I would have to buy laptop fans because it easily heats up.

The second store has my dream laptop. An Acer Travelmate 5520! It actually is like the Asus X51R but only a bit faster with a superior graphics card. But I bet my mom would get me either an HP Compaq Presario C702TU or an Acer Aspire 4315 Notebook. They really have the same specs to each other (even with the Neo Endura 540SLe) but I would prefer the Acer from the three (HP, Acer Aspire, Neo). The HP may be a better brand but its design is sort of... uhm... square? The second store does have my laptop of preferences but they don’t have an installment plan. I doubt my mom would buy it directly with cold hard cash. But I do hope that things work out with the second store. My mom has some connections with the said store and she could arrange for something. But unfortunately the said person is on leave. I do hope that that person decides to return ASAP so that things will be worked out and then I can get my laptop (an Acer or HP, NOT a NEO, God forbids) by the second week.

I would rather wait for a month longer as long as I don’t get a Neo for a laptop.

I’m Sorry Meow-Meow

I did something really awful today and it really made me very sad. You see I was forced to take a little kitten away from our house. The story goes like this:

My puppy, Missy, was barking like crazy and she was very anxious, agitated, and wasn’t acting like herself.

I was investigating the cause of her anxiety when I heard a tiny “Meow”. And voila a baby kitten appeared hiding under some old tires. Missy was barking at it and I really admired the courage of the kitten who despite the big size of Missy, she still hissed and sort of tried to scratch Missy to defend herself (or himself).

I went near the kitten and called it and to my surprise it went near me. It sort of trusted me and I suddenly had a liking to the kitten. I honestly wanted to keep it and take care of it because she (he) was really small and I’m afraid for her safety. But I had to take her away because I love my puppy too and I don’t want her to be infected with rabbis from the cat. I had no choice and I caught her and dropped her (him) somewhere far, because if my father was the one to dispose of her, he would have done worst and I didn’t want to hurt the kitten.

I’m ashamed of what I did. But as long as I’m under the roof of my parents I can’t do anything and I really had to protect Missy. This situation is really depressing.

I’m Sorry That You’re Impoverished

I just hate some of my brother’s friends, if not completely all of them. I can’t fake it and act happy whenever they’re around the house and be hospitable and all because they define the epitome of “buwiysetas” or unwanted visitors. Like they have the nerve of saying this line: “I never thought that HE (referring to ME) would be here…” Like the HELL! I happen to live here you stupid b*tches. This happens to be my freaking home, this is my domain, my sanctuary, my abode, residence, and whatever you call a place you own and live in. Grrr! I hate them! If only I have the time and energy to throw them out of the house!

Some of them have the audacity to come to our house in the evening to use our computer. And for what? For checking their Friendster accounts and even for scanning their pictures of their hideous selves. Like don’t they have the decency to call ahead (that is if they have a phone, or send an SMS at least) or wait until morning to do their stupidness? My gosh, I don’t want to be rude like they are but don’t they have money to spend on internet cafes? Like do they understand the word PRIVATE or PRIVACY? My HOME is not a PUBLIC place where they can casually enter in the middle of the night! I don’t care if they can’t afford to buy their own PC or connect to the internet, or worst, can’t afford to rent a computer in an internet café. Don't get me wrong. I don't look down on them because they can't afford to buy a PC or connect to the internet, what I'm really against is that they have the nerve to go to our house acting as if they own it. How dare they impose themselves and barge in our house without any courtesy call?! How rude and undignified. But what would you expect from people of poor breeding.

I know that it’s Christmas and all but lately I have noticed that they have a negative influence with my brother and that triggers my hate mode. These bunch of delinquents lie to their parents about where they are going and they don’t even inform their parents that they’re not coming home. These are the group of youth that I can tag as a problem of society. Hell, my brother was even caught carrying marijuana (Cannabis) and who else would we blame but his stupid misfit friends. They have the foul excuse of having these prayer meetings during Sunday just to idle somewhere.

Dreamfall: The Longest Journey

Before reading the post I should warn you… this contain LOTS of spoilers. If you plan on playing the game don’t read this post.

Ah! I just finished the game and I was really disappointed! For a long journey that was pretty short! I mean there were some… I mean A LOT of questions left unanswered. It’s like watching a movie and is cut short. Like what happened to the other characters? What happened to April? Is she really dead? Will Kian be executed? Is the White Drake killed by Brian? Why is Reza not Reza? Why was the big ugly rich monster killed by his own minions? And why on earth would a mother allow her daughter to be in a comma? Is Zoe a real organic person or a clone or a sort of test tube baby?

The game’s plot is very interesting and it literally sucks you in to the story. It’s a great role-playing game and you are able to think and solve difficult puzzles (yeah, I cheated in some chapters of the game…). There is a sort of anti-church connotation here as represented by the “holy people” who wanted to convert “sinners” and bring them into the light and worship their “goddess” even if they have to use force. It does ring a bell doesn’t it? Not that I’m an anti-church person. The story line is so good! I feel like I’m watching a movie even if it’s a game. But the combat system does suck but who’s complaining? I’m not into the beat them up genre kind of gamer anyway.

I am so disappointed. Like Dreamfall is a masterpiece no doubt about it but what a bummer. I did enjoy the game, I just hate the ending.

Just Go Away and Die




This is a song that I made and sang myself. Just listen to it if you want to.

Artists in the Making

I was never enthusiastic about the idea of studying art and all but once I had started thinking and creating what we call art I finally realized that art is not that bad.

But I don't work alone, I have a group called "Naning" short for "Naningkamot" or meaning trying our best. None in the group is a professional artist or excel in drawing or paintng but we each played a part in conceptualizing to create a masterpiece.

Here are some of our latest work:

"SELDA"

Selda is a paintng about a man who was wrongfully accused and thrown into jail to serve his life-sentence. If you would notice the man's eyes, it is the eyes of an innocent man who is saddened and who is suffering in his current situation. He wants to break free but can't.

This painting could also symbolize our potentials that we don't want to be tapped or prevent from being tapped. For example, we can sing well but we constantly put ourselves down and think negatively so the outcome would naturally be a failure.


"FACADE"
Facade is about a girl who is naturally kind and good-hearted but because of a society (as symbolized by the sun) that is chaotic and complex she must wear a mask to serve as a defense mechanism. In this modern society, if you show your self as someone weak and defenseless people will naturally take advantage of you and manipulate you. That is why the girl is trying to convey a strong image so that she won't be taken advantage of.

Man is intrinsically good but in a society where evil is more dominant, the people in that society are more likely to adapt to survive. They adapt by being more defensive and selfish... self-preservation.

"CRIMINAL MIND"
This painting symbolizes a corrupt society where the government officials are working together with drug lords and prostitutes and other evil elements (as symbolized by the 4 heads on the wall). The time setting is during the night time because this is the time of the day where most evil elements (drug pushers, stealers, etc) work. The man who is about to step into the darkness symbolizes the innocent people who are about to die or about to be used by the politicians or drug lords to do their dirty work. The wall symbolizes the current situation of society, destroyed and stained by blood due to many people dying. The triangular eyes represent the media and society who are either apathetic, too coward to unveil the truth, or the media who exaggerate things making the current situation worse.

The starry night sky is a glimmer of hope because the stars symbolize people who are willing to do everything that they can to change the current situation of society.

God created everything... including evil

A University professor at a well known
institution of higher learning
challenged his students with this
question. "Did God create everything
that exists?"

A student bravely replied, "Yes he
did!"

"God created everything?" The
professor asked.

"Yes sir, he certainly did," the
student replied.

The professor answered, "If God
created everything; then God created
evil. And, since evil exists, and
according to the principle that our
works define who we are, then we can
assume God is evil."

The student became quiet and did not
answer the professor's hypothetical
definition. The professor, quite
pleased with himself, boasted to the
students that he had proven once more
that the Christian faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and
said, "May I ask you a question,
professor?"

"Of course", replied the professor.

The student stood up and
asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"

"What kind of question is this? Of
course it exists. Have you never been
cold?"

The other students snickered at the
young man's question.

The young man replied, "In fact sir,
cold does not exist. According to the
laws of physics, what we consider cold
is in reality the absence of heat.
Every body or object is susceptible to
study when it has or transmits energy,
and heat is what makes a body or
matter have or transmit energy.
Absolute zero (-460 F) is the total
absence of heat; and all matter
becomes inert and incapable of
reaction at that temperature. Cold
does not exist. We have created this
word to describe how we feel if we
have no heat."

The student continued, "Professor,
does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it
does."

The student replied, "Once again you
are wrong sir, darkness does not exist
either. Darkness is in reality the
absence of light. Light we can study,
but not darkness. In fact, we can use
Newton's prism to break white light
into many colors and study the various
wavelengths of each color.

You cannot measure darkness. A simple
ray of light can break into a world of
darkness and illuminate it. How can
you know how dark a certain space is?
You measure the amount of light
present. Isn't this correct? Darkness
is a term used by man to describe what
happens when there is no light
present."

Finally the young man asked the
professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor
responded, "Of course, as I have
already said. We see it everyday. It
is in the daily examples of man's
Inhumanity to man. It is in the
multitude of crime and violence
everywhere in the world. These
manifestations are nothing else but
evil.

To this the student replied, "Evil
does not exist, sir, or at least it
does not exist unto itself. Evil is
simply the absence of God. It is just
like darkness and cold, a word that
man has created to describe the
absence of God. God did not create
evil. Evil is the result of what
happens when man does not have God's
love present in his heart. It's like
the cold that comes when there is no
heat, or the darkness that comes when
there is no light."

The professor sat down.

The young man's name - Albert Einstein

The Moon Shines It's Brightest In the Dark

There is a point in one’s life where you just get tired of living. There is no specific reason why you just want to cease existing. There is no antagonist that makes your life miserable and no problem that will cause a colossal impact on one’s life; you just simply get tired of it all… bored even. You feel as if your soul has left your body and all that is left is a hollow shell that continues this pitiful charade of what we call life. It’s like you suddenly have a bad case of anhedonia or the loss of the ability to experience pleasure in things that would normally make an ordinary person ecstatic.

It is in these times that I feel so spiritually drained that I seek for something out of the ordinary, something greater than me, something that will cause a major change in my life like an awakening… maybe even like God. I want to be inspired, to be motivated, to stop being idle and just watch my life slowly slip away.

I want to be reborn into someone that is spiritual and is free of human sin that stains my soul. I want to be purified and live as someone who is enlightened and who sees through what is essential in life.

It is in these dry spells that I love to go into my own private place and watch the moon shine in its finest glory. You just have the way the moon illuminates the darkness with a mysterious glow. It’s cold at night but somehow you feel warm and safe. I just want to watch the moon for eternity and forever be at peace.

The Resurrection of Nanette!


At last! My friend Nanette has risen from the dead and had finally shown her face to us. Nothing has really changed in her since the last day that we saw her. It was really fun to be with her and tease her again. It's a shame that I wasn't able to take a picture of that special occasion.

Anyway, contrary to people's belief she didn't disappear because she was hiding her newborn baby or something. It's because of a more simpler reason, a reason which of course I am bound not to tell you. But it's definitely not in the line of scandal or what so ever.

We hope that we could all get together tonight and have a reunion dinner. I'm hoping that the others won't be a kill-joy or a party-pooper like me. Lol! But hey! I'm organizing this thing so they should come.


To Zack

Hey Zack sorry that I had to delete your post in my chatbox. I removed it because of the following reasons:

  1. It's very offensive.
  2. It had bad grammar.
  3. Duh?!
You asked me if I understood Spanish? Si Señor, I can understand some Spanish because if you knew some of your own country's history we were actually colonized by your ancestors for 300 years so the Filipino people would have acquired some of that culture right (basing on Socio-Anthropology, do you know what this is Zack?).

Now, let me ask you... Do you know how to speak Tagalog and Cebuano? Because I do. I know 3 languages proficiently and I don't have the interest in learning Spanish because of the following reasons:
  1. I'm not Spanish
  2. I don't need to learn Spanish
  3. I don't want to learn Spanish
  4. I'd rather learn Japanese or Korean than Spanish
  5. English is the language used by the International Community
And to prove that I can speak in 3 languages here are some lines:
  • Tagalog: Ang mukha mo ay kahawig nang aking puwet
  • Cebuano: Ang imong nawong k murag lubot nako.
  • English: You're so Funny... (hahaha)

Intellectual Masturbation


Intellectual Masturbation Rubs Me The Wrong Way

Intellectual masturbation is a big problem on campus. Every class I go to, there’s one or two people with no shame. They don’t hesitate doing it in front of everybody who is there trying to learn. The time has come to take a long, hard look at intellectual masturbation and examine how it affects our campus.

Intellectual masturbation can be defined as: 1. The act of satisfying one’s ego through statements intended only to show off one’s intelligence. 2. Acting like a know-it-all jerk that no one likes to listen to and everyone wishes would just shut up.

The most common form of intellectual masturbation comes in class discussion. Students will be exchanging ideas on a topic. Most listen and respond to what others say. It seems that real academic dialogue is taking place. Then, without warning, the intellectual masturbator intrudes with a five-minute rant on something remotely related to the topic. He will bring in outside reading that has little to do with the subject area and certainly didn’t appear anywhere on the course syllabus. The other students will sit in pain and watch as the student continues for what seems like hours. When the act of self-satisfaction is finished, the class is incapacitated, and the professor struggles to connect what was said back to the class discussion. Sometimes the professor succeeds in retaining the class’s focus, but more often than not, the class discussion never reaches the same level it had been before someone decided to turn it into an ego-stroking session.

The truly talented intellectual masturbator doesn’t need a class discussion to satisfy his urges. Even in a large lecture class, he will find a way to show everyone else in the class how smart he is. The most common technique is what I like to call the “Trojan Horse.” It works like this:

Professor: “Does anyone have any questions about this, anything they need cleared up? Yes Mr. Jones, you have a question.”

Student: “I’ve always thought that … [five minute dissertation entitled ‘Look at me, I’m smart.] … would you agree?”

I’m sure we’re all familiar with this technique from freshman year. It appears to be very popular with the more experienced practitioners, as it requires a higher level of skill and carries more risk. Yet at the same time, it seems to be much more pleasurable for the student, most likely because he has a much larger audience. Intellectual masturbation is inherently exhibitionist in nature.

This brings us to the third common type of intellectual masturbation. It requires by far the most hubris, presents the greatest danger and clearly provides the optimum level of pleasure for those who do it. It is a close cousin of the “Trojan Horse” technique but occurs on a much grander scale. I speak of the “Prove to the famous person that they’re wrong and you’re smarter than they are” technique. As its name implies, this technique requires the presence of someone famous, and at Georgetown that means it can only be done during the question and answer session that follows a speech by a major figure.

After the speaker is finished, the student will be one of the first in line at the microphone. When his turn comes, he will indeed ask a question. However, the question will approach 10 minutes in length, include every possible counter-argument to the speaker’s position and usually be quite rude and unoriginal. Yet, when the student is finished asking the question, self-satisfaction flows over him as he basks in the warmth of his own genius.

What makes this form of intellectual masturbation the most painful to witness is not so much the audacity or arrogance of it but its inherent futility. Just what does the student expect to accomplish?

Student: “ … [After eight-minute presentation of every imaginable pro-choice argument] … So how can you possibly be pro-life Mr. Keyes?”

Alan Keyes: “My God, you’re right! The fetus is not a human person! And to think I’ve spent the last 16 years of my life working to take away a woman’s right to choose. I should be ashamed. Thank you, sir, for enlightening me.”

It’s like trying to persuade the Dalai Lama that he should start a violent Tibetan resistance movement. Did students really think that Larry Flynt would stop publishing Hustler because they showed him how pornography objectifies women? Did they expect Charlton Heston to hold a press conference the day after speaking at Georgetown to announce the NRA was now backing handgun control?

I don’t mean to be so judgmental about intellectual masturbation. I respect your right to tell yourself how smart you are. I don’t honestly care if you stand in front of your mirror late at night and contrast Plato’s Republic to the liberalism of J.S. Mill. I just don’t want to watch.

Quietly Making Noise appears regularly in The Hoya.

THE TOP 10 SCHOOLS IN THE PHILIPPINES

THE TOP 10 SCHOOLS IN THE PHILIPPINES

This statistics is a result of the study conducted by the Professional Regulation Commission (PRC) and the Commission on Higher Education (CHED), based on the average passing in the BOARD EXAMINATIONS OF ALL COURSES of all universities and colleges in the Philippines.

This study is concluded every 10 years. The following is the result of the first study from
1992 to 2001. Five schools come from Luzon, two from the Visayas and three from Mindanao.

1. University of the Philippines (Diliman Campus /Luzon)

2. Silliman University (Dumaguete City / Visayas)

3. Ateneo de Davao University (Davao / Mindanao)

4. Ateneo de Manila University (Manila / Luzon)

5. University of Sto. Tomas (Manila / Luzon)

6. Mindanao State University (Mindanao)

7. Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila (Manila /Luzon)

8. Saint Louis University (Baguio City / Luzon)

9. University of San Carlos (Cebu City / Visayas)

10. Xavier University (Cagayan de Oro /Mindanao)


Wooh! My school is in the list! The only one from Cagayan de Oro too. I don't know the latest list though but I bet XU would still be in the Top 10. I heard that there was a latest statistics where XU ranked top 7. I wonder if this would be because of the well-known 100% passing rate of board examinees from the XU College of Nursing...

But you know what? These statistics are so unreliable... plus people are so biased... to be honest, I am one of those biased people hehehe. Who would say that "I'm enrolled in the worst school ever" right? We would definitely say that "my school is the best".

But what are the criteria for being the best? And why is the school so damn important in our lives? One thing for sure is that if you graduate from a reputable and respectable university you would propbably have a greater edge over those who graduated from other unknown schools. And this is a fact. One company I know of in Cagayan de Oro hand-picks applicants who came from XU or a better school outside Mindanao and then if there are some vacant slots chooses from the other top performers from other schools. My source is very reliable thank you.

But in the end, if you don't perform well as expected you would still fail and be fired and you will definitely bring shame to your school. This is why the best schools just don't allow any student to graduate unless they perceive that that student is already capable.

So conclusion? Just work your way to the top and stop wasting time by trying to defend yourself that your school is the best! I'm not hehehe... I'm not the one saying nah my school is better than that school because they know more about skills and stuff and this school is only based on theories... but if I were a person so concerned with people comparing my school to theirs just to prove that they are better, then my rebuttal would be: how can you apply skills when you don't know the theories or reason behind it... duh?! hehehe...

Peace to all!

Addiction

You try to stop… you swear false vows… you are full of optimism…

But deep inside you, the desire is unquenchable; your yeaning is insatiable…

You know that what you are doing is wrong. You know that it will hurt you, and most of all it will hurt and offend other people around you.

But still deep inside you know that you simply can’t live without it. You tell your self that this is the last or this is only a bit or piece of that and it doesn’t matter… you fool yourself and keep on making excuses to be able to do what you sworn to abstain from…

In the end, your addiction takes over you… you then become guilty and even get depressed from your lack of will power… but days after the horrible cycle of abstaining and breaking loose repeats itself over and over…

And then you ask yourself, why do I have to stop in the first place? Maybe this is who I am and I should just embrace it… what do I care what other people think, that is not my business. My business is to live my life the way I am.

Morality simply means doing things that makes you happy and you do these things because you know that they are right… that in it’s manner makes the act right. If your addiction doesn’t harm the rest of the world why stop right?

On Morality

"There is no way that we can understand other people's feelings... no matter the feeling... if they're in your mind, they are yours. Therefore... you agree with them, that alone makes them right. What is and isn't right varies from person to person. Happiness also varies from person to person." -excerpt from xxxHolic

I agree. We define our own morality. Only we xan know what is the right thing to do in a totally awkward situation. The society may have it's own preformulated rules that they expect you to follow but in the end, you must follow your own heart because what ever makes you happy is something that is right. But of course this is only valid if you don't step on other people's rights or violate them.

Geez... morality sure is problematic...

Do What You Shouldn't Do

"The desire to do what you know you shouldn't is indeed one of the very desires that define humanity." an excerpt from xxxHolic

Why is it that we get a kick out of doing what's wrong? We think that doing what is illegal is an adrenaline rush, it's exciting, it's hip. Maybe it really is.

Doing something wrong and breaking the rules is like being free and you have a sense of control and it is amazing. You feel that you can do absolutely anything.

Maybe this is why so many people do stuff that society thinks is wrong... like adultery for example. What is wrong is really tempting because just the thrill of the chase, the process of doing what is prohibited is exhilerating.

But of course, one must only be prepared for the proper punishment that comes with it. Again, rule of equivalent trade people.

Running Away From Happiness

Why does someone run away from happiness? This is a weird question from xxxHolic.

Another weird question: If you won one billion pesos worth of lottery would you claim it or not?

For a person who would run away from happiness, that person wouldn't probably claim it. And why on earth would a sane person refuse to claim the prize? Answer?

It's simple, in order to receive happiness, it takes an equal amount of effort; compensation is required. You must also experience the same amount of unhappiness as payment for whatever happiness you incurred. This ladies and gentlemen is the law of equivalent trade.

You alway have to pay your debts even if you are the receiver. This means that you have to also reward your sufferings that you have incurred from your choices. If you win the lottery, claim the prize as that is your compensation. If you owe ten thousand yen, you must pay ten thousand yen. If you deserve 300 million pesos then receive 300 million pesos. Any discount will dusrupt the balance. Disrupting the balance would only reak havoc.

That is why some people refuse to receive happiness. The good parts are the parts that you must pay for. One who refuses happiness is someone who refuses to accept the responsibilities incurred from receving happiness.


If you ask me, that person is quite smart. Every action is well calculated, but one false move could only lead that person in some deep problem... but on the bright side, proper compensation comes: happiness.

So how can someone run away from happiness exactly? Take for example the girl from xxxHolic. In order to risk the reward of getting promoted, she allowed herself to be in an accident so that she would miss that very stressful presentation. She could present very well and even succeed in it but she doesn't want the responsibilities that comes with being promoted. See? Her careful plan had lead to a desired conclusion of neutrality. The balance wasn't even shaken one bit.

Another learning from xxxHolic.

Fate

“Coincidence is but an illusion.
There is only fate.”

I have always believed that things happen for a reason. There are no accidents or mere coincidence. Everything that occurs is a chain reaction and an event is the result of than reaction. Life is like a wheel that continues on rolling and there is a path that we must follow. Life is a sequence of events.

But I also believe in free will. Fate can only bring us too far as to encounter a certain event but it is in our hands and our own choice to choose to have fate work or come into reality. This is just like meeting the girl/boy of your dreams, a person who is perfect. You met that person because of fate. But it’s up to you if you talk to that person or not. Either way your choices will lead you to another chain of events and so forth. We do have a choice, and every choice we make counts.

But one thing is for sure. Our death is inevitable. No choice we make can save us from death, and it is in this manner that fate takes hold of our life.

Things happen for a reason… but the reasons are unclear…

Words are Powerful

I have been watching xxxHolic lately and I want to share some learning that I have derived from it:

“Waves. Things that rise and fall.

Waves. Things that proliferate from a source.

Waves. Things that can’t be fought against.

Living things are restrained by Chains:

The laws of nature

The flow of time

The vessel known as your “body”

And the existence called your mind

The one chain that people can wield: WORDS.”

The waves that are mentioned here are words. As I interpret these statements, I have come up with this. There are many kinds of words. There are words that are positive and words that are negative. And these words come from one source: our own self. Words are powerful and they cannot be stopped. We as humans have many weaknesses and these may even inhibit us from reaching our full potentials. The laws of nature prevents us from doing some things like flying or being invisible for example. The flow of time restricts us from undoing what we have done in the past. Our bodies are fragile and it won’t last forever. And our mind has its own limitations. But words… we can use this for our own advantage. We can say that we can’t do something and we will definitely fail because we don’t have faith in our self. Or better yet we can say I can do this and things will turn out better. Negative words will only restrain your self. How will you know that something will turn out bad when you never tried? Nothing will be accomplished by being pessimistic.

“Words are living things. Chains can be used for more than tying down. They can be used to connect, and tie together. Looking forward and speaking positively makes all the difference.”

Words can bridge people together. Saying positive things will attract people to you and would be more at ease speaking with you and this will form a relationship between you two. How will you know people when you don’t talk to them because you already say that they dislike you?

“Words are amazing. However, words don’t only affect the one using them…”

But words can also come from other people. Other people can say hurtful things that could put you down.

“You are responsible for your own choices. So much pity when you are tied down. If you enjoy living like this, there’s no harm in staying tied down. Your immediate comfort is not telling yourself “everything will turn out great and the joy it brings when you’re right.”

But you can choose to be affected or not. You have the power to break free from the chains of negative words that other people throw at you. If you don’t like the things that people say to you then prove to them that they are wrong and stop yourself from unconsciously fulfilling the things that they say about you.

Words are really amazing. They can bring people together or they can bring us apart and even start disagreements. Words are like wild beasts that are once released cannot be taken back or controlled. Words can spread like wild fire and if it’s negative then be ready for things to get worst. That is why we should always think twice before we speak because it only takes a few seconds to say hurtful things but the impact on your relationship with the other person will last for a lifetime.

I can totally relate with this quotes from xxxHolic. But there are times that you must really speak out what you feel because the longer that you keep your anger and frustrations inside you, the feeling will grow and will end up in an ugly outburst and you will really regret it. This usually happen to the silent and kind type of people. They let people abuse them and they really become really angry when they lose it and may even end up killing the other person.

We can always use words to express ourselves but we must use them with tact so that we won’t offend others. Use words cautiously. We must be affirmative but never offensive…

Hmm… So much wisdom… I really love xxxHolic!

xxxHolic Review

I really have enjoyed watching xxxHolic. I haven't finished watching the series yet but I could say that it is a work of art. The graphics are excellent and the music is perfect. The combination of the two portrays a perfect world of magic and real life. CLAMP, the producer of the said anime, is really amazing. It really makes you think and your imagination can just run wild.

And who ever said animè isn't educational? Well xxxHolic can prove you wrong. It showcases the rich culture of Japan by embedding in the plot the different legends and myths in Japan. The way of life of Japanese people are shown and their different food, dresses, and customs are shown. It really amazes me how Japan can be so high-tech but they still are able to preserve their own identity, culture, and history.

Also xxxHolic is a perfect place to study philosophy and humanity as it exposes some morals and truths of what truly is being a human being. I will share some learning that I have derived in some of my other posts.

Totally amazing! I really love xxxHOLIC and I am quite inspired when I watch each episode that is full of wisdom and zest.

I rate it with a perfect five out of five! Why don’t you guys watch it and see for yourselves what I’m talking about.

Plot

The series' protagonist, Kimihiro Watanuki, is a high school student who is continually plagued by supernatural monsters (youkai) and spirits which are magically attracted to him. The creatures are invisible to all but him, and as a result he feels extremely burdened by them. When he quite literally stumbles into a shop that grants wishes, his life changes drastically.

Within the shop is the seductively beautiful Yūko Ichihara, a witch of many names and esoteric renown. The seemingly all-knowing witch soon gets down to business: she offers to grant Watanuki's wish to be rid of his ability to see spirits. However, a price equal to the power required to grant the wish must be paid. Yūko discovers that Watanuki is very skilled with his hands and a hard worker. As a result, Watanuki soon finds himself forced to perform housework and odd jobs for Yūko until he has done enough work for his wish to be granted.

Shortly afterwards, other characters become involved with Watanuki's position, including his love interest, Himawari Kunogi, and his "rival", Shizuka Dōmeki. The three become increasingly "friendlier", despite the amount of times Watanuki gets annoyed with Dōmeki's unflappable attitude.

Another recurring theme in the manga storyline is that Watanuki's growth and change will be because of his experiences of meeting one person. Yūko, according to a fortune teller in Volume 2, is the one that will change Watanuki. However, it's implied that he will be linked to both Yūko and Dōmeki and that all their connections were foreseen.

High School Musical 2 Phenomenon

Again Disney has made it big time with the big success of their sequel, High School Musical 2. Even it’s album was a great success reportedly “outselling Justin Timberlake and Beyonce and Rascal Flatts and everything else.” If you don't know what High School Musical is then I'm sorry to tell you that you really need serious updating with the happenings of the world.

I really enjoyed the movie and is definitely a show for the whole family because Troy and Gabriela did not even have a single kissing scene. The songs are better and the certain twists in the story are quite good. But I have to say that I liked Sharpay’s version of “You are the Music in Me” better than the one of Troy and Gabriela.

This movie is a great recommend to all of the people out there! A 5 out of 5 stars! Why? Just watch the damn movie to see how this Disney Original became such a phenomenon! If you missed High School Musical 1 & 2 then you should really watch the coming High School Musical 3!


Here’s the plot:

The summer brings jolly excitement to the East High Wildcats as they go over their plans for their break from school with the song "What Time Is It?". Troy Bolton (Zac Efron) stresses over getting a job with the price of college looming on his mind, as well as trying to make sure he and Gabriella Montez (Vanessa Hudgens) are able to stay together all summer. Sharpay and Ryan Evans (Ashley Tisdale and Lucas Grabeel) plan on spending the summer at their family's country club, Lava Springs ("Fabulous"). However, Sharpay's summer plan also includes separating Troy and Gabriella by getting Troy hired at Lava Springs. What Sharpay does not plan on is Troy talking the club's manager, Mr. Fulton (Mark L. Taylor), into hiring the rest of the Wildcats, including Gabriella and her best friend Taylor (Monique Coleman), and Troy's best friend Chad (Corbin Bleu). Fulton is unable to fire the Wildcats at Sharpay's command, since her mother (Jessica Tuck) approved their hiring, so she orders him to make them want to quit. Troy offers to help his friends working in the kitchen and convinces them that they can work their hardships out, in the song, "Work This Out".

Sharpay schemes harder than ever to make the Wildcats miserable, and win Troy, who has to choose between two worlds: his own with the Wildcats and Gabriella, or another where Sharpay's family can offer him a way to college and other luxuries he has only dreamed about. Kelsi writes a duet for Troy and Gabriella, but Sharpay steals the duet from the two of them and forces Troy to sing it with her, holding his future over his head. As Troy grows further away from Gabriella, Ryan is pushed further away from Sharpay. Taylor and Gabriella even invite Ryan to the baseball game, and Chad offers him Troy's place in the game. Troy and Gabriella's relationship is strained to the breaking point, as well as Troy's friendship with Chad.


When Sharpay finally crosses the line by banning the Wildcats from performing in Lava Springs' annual Star Dazzle Talent Show, even though Ryan has been working with the group to put together a performance, Gabriella confronts Sharpay. She makes it clear that she refuses to play Sharpay's "game", and quits her job at Lava Springs. Troy overhears the exchange and tries to convince Gabriella to change her mind. However, all she can think of is how much Troy has changed over the summer, and breaks up with him. She returns the necklace that Troy presented to her at the beginning of their relationship.

Gabriella's quitting causes Troy to see the person he has become and realize everything he has sacrificed. Finally when Gabriella breaks up with him he realises the mistakes he made and the people he hurt, especially Gabriella and Chad. His relationship with Gabriella was just blossoming and he blew it. As he sets out to make everything right again, Ryan gets help from the Wildcats to conspire to get Troy and Gabriella back together. They convince Troy to sing with Sharpay in the talent show - even though he'd quit citing her ban on junior staffers' participation in the show - which he does only under the condition that the Wildcats are allowed to perform as well. Sharpay relents, and the Wildcats put their plan into motion, finally getting Troy and Gabriella back together as they sing a duet together. Troy begins to sing and then he hears Gabriella's voice and looks around, surprised. She finally emerges from the back of the crowd behind the Wildcats. After the talent show, Troy, Gabriella, Sharpay, Zeke, Jason, Kelsi, Chad, Taylor, Martha, and Ryan all head out onto the golf course to enjoy the fireworks. Troy and Gabriella finally share their first kiss then Gabbriella pulls him closer then they hug, and the summer ends with a staff pool party and the Wildcats' celebration of a great summer together. Gabriella and Troy jump into the pool together. They swim for hours until then.

Realizations

As they say, “Man is an empty shell filled only with endless wants and desires…:

Actually, that’s just my saying. But my point is how do you differentiate the things you need from the things you want? Or better yet, the people you need and the people you desire?

Let us define the terms shall we?

need (nēd)
n.
1. A condition or situation in which something is required or wanted: crops in need of water; a need for affection.
2. Something required or wanted; a requisite: “Those of us who led the charge for these women's issues … shared a common vision in the needs of women” (Olympia Snowe).
3. Necessity; obligation: There is no need for you to go.
4. A condition of poverty or misfortune: The family is in dire need.

want (wŏnt, wônt)
n.
1. The condition or quality of lacking something usual or necessary: stayed home for want of anything better to do.
2. Pressing need; destitution: lives in want.
3. Something desired: a person of few wants and needs.
4. A defect of character; a fault.

Ok I am now more confused. But from my point of you need is something you can’t live without and want is something you can live without, such a simple definition don’t you think but it all fits.

There are things in my life that I want and there are things that I need. The problem is my wants is overpowering and overpowers my needs that I neglect and poorly prioritize things. I am quite aware that there are things and maybe even people perhaps that distract me from reaching my goals.

But again what are my goals? Ayayayay…. This is a complete dilemma.

But again you might ask what the connection is between wants and needs to priorities? Well, I see my needs as my priorities and my wants as complete nuisance.

My gosh… I really have to settle my priorities first before I turn to something I hate the most: a blood-sucking empty-headed dumb couch potato. Poor me…

Singing Blunders

People don’t actually know this but I have this incredible talent for singing (well it’s the only talent I have aside from being sarcastic, if being sarcastic is a talent). I really love singing, I feel that I am able to express my self through singing. It’s just a shame that people don’t have taste and can’t appreciate how a great singer I am hahaha.

I actually have been able to sing in front of a big audience. My singing career all began when I was still a young boy and I already sang in front of everyone inside a huge gym. Well I was still lip synchronizing and I was half boy and half girl at that time, if you understand the concept of singing both the guy and girl part (doble cara people… you know 2 faced?!). It was for a talent portion of a pageant (see I was born for greatness hahaha, I won 6 trophies). I also sang at school but my great talent was suppressed when I was in high school. I sang for the choir in first year after passing the audition with my singing style. But it was frustrating when my second year music teacher couldn’t comprehend my great talent in singing and my wonderful voice.

So here we are the present… I did try to redeem my self in college, trying to sing whenever there is a chance. I sang in KC’s debut, during English class, and could you believe I even sang infront of the class during Chemistry? Try to make the connection between chemistry and singing.

But some of my performances were not as perfect as one would expect of a genius that I am (hehehe). I am not proud to say but I did have several blunders. And here they are:

  1. You think Christian Bautista was outrageously funny for forgetting the lines of the national anthem, well I forgot the lines of my school’s Xavier Hymn during 2 auditions… but come to think of it, why the hell did I sing the school song in an audition? What was I thinking?! I actually didn’t know if I got in or not hehehe… I lost interest in it. Plus I didn’t have the time.
  2. I sang infront of 100 people in class the “My toes, my knees, my shoulder, my head” song… such shame…
  3. I sang “Above All” in the community… You think I was emoting during the said prayer song… but the truth is I forgot the lines… major shame.
  4. Another stupid song that I sang in the community: “May pato kong patuka-tuka, pakiwi-kiwi, pakuway-kuway…” with the matching actions people!!! Gosh why do I bring shame unto myself…
  5. Did you know that I joined Pinoy Pop Superstar?! You ask why you didn’t see me on TV during the auditions? Well the truth is, I went to SM for the auditions but realized while waiting in line that my classy talent is unfit to be seen in that circus (hehehe).

I wonder if singing is really for me. People say that I have a nice voice and said I’m good in singing but wooh, things have been discouraging hehehe.

Maybe I’ll just concentrate on my second talent… being sarcastic? Nope. Acting… hehehe.

Blogging Again

It has been months since my last blog. It isn’t surprising though since I don’t need to vent all my anger perhaps even my misery on the net since I’m now able to handle some of my everyday frustrations.

So why am I blogging right now you ask? Well let’s just say I’m in the mood to talk some nonsense and Jake Long the American Dragon has inspired me to write.

So many days have gone and passed and so many things have happened. So many that I find it tiring to talk about all of them… but I’ll make a lazy summary of all that has transpired in my life in a silly list:

  1. I was able to deliver and assist in a real delivery of a baby plus even did cord care to 4 babies consecutively!
  2. Finals are over and Davao here I come for my psychiatric affiliation.
  3. I quit being vice-president for the 3rd Year Level student council.
  4. My friend JM finally went to live in the states.
  5. KC is sick…
  6. I still hate people
  7. I love my puppy Missy
  8. I’m actually playing an online game
  9. I love anime… currently waiting for more Naruto episodes
  10. I’m naughty… such a shame
  11. I got drunk before an exam…
  12. I’m lazy and I hate it
  13. I love money
  14. I’m bored
  15. I still love food

Hmm… actually I’m finally at the point where I am once again faced with the big question of what am I doing and why am I doing what I do now… Where am I heading and if life is worth the suffering huhuhu.

I hate my blogs they are so pathetic hahaha. Oh well, on with my life…

Puppy!

I really can't wait for August 27! Not only is this day great because there's no class but it is the day that one of my dreams and wishes would come true... to have a cute puupy hehehe.

I have always loved dogs (especially cute little puppies) and finally having one is one of life's simple joys. I used to have puppies before but unfortunately were sent away because of my brother who had asthma (and I hated him because of this).

The puppy isn't a pure breed but who cares, as long as it's a cute little puppy who I will play with when I go home every Saturday. I'm already thinking of the endless possibilities that I could do with my puppy (actually my mom's puppy cause technically she's the one who's getting one). I'm really going to take good care of it and I'll make sure that it will meet it's needs.

Can't wait to post pictures of the new puppy hehehe. ^_^

My 19th Birthday

August 12, 2007

Today I celebrated my 19th birthday. Today has been a special day for me indeed. As I continue journeying this path called life, I have been able to learn a lot of things. As I turn 19 today I am struck by the fact that I am almost reaching the age of young adulthood and I am going to leave behind my childhood. As always, as a new day starts, I am given a fresh start a new beginning. I am able to continue to mold my future and hope for the best.

I leave behind all my shadows, the bad memories, the hatred, the spite, the grudges, and my worst decisions in life. I may not be able to run away from my shadow, but I can always ignore it.

My past will not interfere with my future. I have done stupid things and have met aweful people but all of that doesn't matter now.

What matters is the future and what I can do in the present to reach that future. As I went through the day I was able to realized that I am truly blessed. I have a home where I can call my sanctuary with a family that loves me. I have friends who continue to stick by my side no matter what. I realize that in this world full of strangers, I have people whom I can call my own, I am not alone, I was never alone.

To all those who have made my day special and had made me feel special, thank you very much!

As i grow older, I will opt to be wiser. I won't destroy my future by making the wrong choices. But making the wrong choice may be unavoidable at times, but I will think twice before committing one.

I am proud to say that I have turned 19. I am more experienced and ready to face life's challenges. I am up to the challenge!

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What Should I Major In?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating

You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together.
You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change.

You should major in:

Statistics
Speech
Conflict studies
Communication
Finance
Medicine

Intelligence Test

Your Dominant Intelligence is Intrapersonal Intelligence

Reflective and thoughtful, you enjoy spending time alone.
You are good at analyzing yourself - and knowing your true feelings.
Totally self aware, you are in tune with your dreams and desires.
A spiritual and philopsophical person, your inner calmness inspires and helps others.

You would make a great philosopher, researcher, or theorist.

Common Sense

I am 72 years old. My parents told me about Mr. Common Sense early in my
life and told me I would do well to call on him when making decisions.
It seems he was always around in my early years but less and less as
time passed until today I read his obituary.

Obituary - Common Sense

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who
has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was
since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape

He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as
knowing when to come in out of the rain, why the early bird gets the
worm, life isn't always fair, and maybe it was my fault. Common Sense
lived by simple, sound finan cial policies (don't spend more than you
earn) and reliable parenting strategies (adults, not children are in
charge).

His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well intentioned but
overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a six-year-old boy
charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended
from school for using m outhwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for
reprimanding an unruly student , only worsened his condition.

Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the
job they themselves failed to do in disciplining their unruly children.
It declined even further when schools were required to get parental
consent to administer Aspirin, sun lotion or a sticky plaster to a
student; but could not inform the parents when a student bec ame
pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments became
contraband; churches became businesses; and criminals received better
treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you
couldn't defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar
can sue you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to
realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot. She spilled a little in
her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement. Common Sense was
preceded in death by his parents, Truth and Trust; his wife, Discretion;
his daughter, Responsibility; and his son, Reason.

He is survived by three stepbrothers; I Know my Rights, Someone Else is
to Blame, and I'm a Victim.


Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone. If
you still remember him pass this on. If not , join the majority and do
nothing.

Author unknown

The more clowns, the better the circus!

Because this is what Jesus, would freaking do!

One night I woke up crying and feeling that the whole world was against me and I really felt all alone and hurt. This was the first time in so many years that I have cried and had so much self-pity for myself. I blamed the world and asked why they hated me and wanted to hurt me when all the while I was trying my best to be good and to be friendly.

But I realized that I was only being selfish if I think this way that the world owes me anything. Turns out that I should not really expect anything in return from people because they themselves are hurt and broken. That is why they tend to hurt other people because they believe that this will somehow lift their hurt. But what they don't know is that they are adding more to their pain and that they are spreading their evil seeds around.

We all need is love. We need patience, understanding, and forgiveness. We shouldn't hate and put our selves down because this would only make us miserable.

We can't please everyone, but this doesn't mean that we should hate them for hating us... It's hard but the best way to be truly happy is to do what is right: "to love".

So if anyone asks you, "Why are you so nice to me despite all the things that I have done to you?" Reply, " Because this is what Jesus, would freaking do!"

It all sounds so easy to do... but it's pretty damn hard... if it was easy then people wouldn't be killing each other now.

New Year Resolution

I really like the video! The kid has some talent and is very creative! I really enjoyed watching it. It's simple, witty, and funny!

Snacks at Somewhere




Here are some pics of our little get together at Pizza and Buns (I'm not sure of the name didn't really pay attention hehehe). I really enjoyed my self and we really got to eat a lot... little piggies hehehe...

10 Things Idiots Do On Friendster

ONE

there is NO SUCH THING as a friendster
tracker.

it does NOT exist. so quit posting
stupid bulletins like

"OH-EM-GEEEEE this WORKS!!!"
no, it doesnt!

TWO

To the people who have like 25,000
friends,
are you serious?
You're stupid.
Go play in traffic.

THREE

Don't ever post pictures and say
"OMG, I'm so ugly"
"OMG, I'm so fat"
because if you were,
you wouldn't post them.
And if u do ur a freaking mongoloid.

FOUR

Nobody cares about threats over the
internet.
Don't try to act hardcore with the
keyboard.
Fighting online is like racing in the
special olympics;
even if you win, you're still retarded.

FIVE

Quit crying
b/c you're not on someones top 8.
who cares?
ITS FRIENDSTER!!!
Stop bitching!!!

SIX

Who really cares if
I don't accept you as a friend?
MOVE ON!!!
Don't send me another request or
message asking
"what's up with you not adding me?"
I don't want you as a friend,
that's what's up bitch!!!

SEVEN

Little 12 year olds who have Friendster
and look like sluts, and act like
whores
go somewhere else
because nobody wants you here.

EIGHT

If you have decided to read this,
you are a true Friendster Friend.
Real friends read their bulletins.

NINE

I say you go and pass this on
and maybe it will finally get through
people's brains

TEN

And if you open a bulletin and it says
something like
"repost this in 100 seconds or a ghost
will rape your dog tonight,or some
dead skinless girl is gonna rape your
mom"

QUIT BEING A DUMBASS


This is a test to see how many people
in your friends list
actually pay attention to you.

Repost this with..

"10 things idiots do on Friendster"

Respect & Cura Personalis

Respect & Cura Personalis

I really can’t help but laugh whenever I remember my Freshmen Formation Program lectures because it’s all a bunch of crap and not to mention a lie. Respect and most especially cura personalis (care for the students welfare) does not exist in Xavier University, most especially in the College of Nursing. It’s ironic though that the admin staffs are so apathetic when Nursing is caring, well as the ideal definition of nursing would say. But on the other hand, these admin staffs aren’t Nurses at all or are professionals for that matter. If they were professionals they would have at least some ethics and know how to respect people.

The Admin Office of the College of Nursing has always been an anti-student department of the university ever since I was in first year. They treat the students very badly and they love to shout and destroy our self-esteem. A lot of students are against the admin people’s offensive behavior against them but they only keep quiet because they can’t do anything about it. I know a lot of people who would openly curse at these staff and a lot would agree, I would agree that they do indeed deserved to be cursed. Respect is a two way process. If they wanted to be respected then they should know how to respect in return.

I have my own share of traumatizing encounters with these savage people (yes, savage because they attack without reason). For so long I had held my tongue but I cant take it any longer. I’ll share one recent encounter with the admin that really infuriated me. I was assigned to be a student volunteer last Saturday, April 15, 2007. I had so many reasons why I should reject such request. First, we have a family outing on that day and second I had blepharitis. But I decided to be an SV on that day because I thought that it was my duty and responsibility to do so. I woke up early and even went down from Bukidnon just to serve. But for all my sacrifices and good will what do I get in return? They shouted at me and told me to get lost. Damn them. They didn’t even give me a chance to explain myself why I went in the office that early morning when I knew that they were still closed. They could inform me in a nice way that they were still closed right? But this is not the way of the high and mighty admin staff. Their way is to shout at you with their sarcastic faces and they really try to put you down. I wonder why they have such bad tempers, not to mention manners. There are even times when I see them shouting their heads off at students even when the students try all their best to keep their cool and refrain themselves from answering back.

If some of the Nursing students have bad attitudes, these can only be reflected from the verbal abuses that they receive from the admin people. But I tell you, this has got to stop!

I feel that it is my responsibility as an elected officer to be the voice of the student body in airing out this concern. A lot of students would say that the admin people have no right to treat us, the students, with great disrespect because we after all pay their salaries. Without us, the College of Nursing would never exist. But even if we don’t pay their salaries, the mere fact that they are in an Atenean institution should be reason enough why they should be more student-friendly rather than abuse the students with their bad attitude.

I am campaigning for a more student-friendly College of Nursing Administration Office. This will be one of my major projects as the elected CONUS 3rd Year Vice-President. I will be having a signature campaign and I will address this matter to the right offices so that the admin people would also be made aware of their actions towards the student body and how this affects the student body.

The Administration Office of the College of Nursing is ideally present to cater the needs of the students regarding enrollments and other business related affairs. If the Admin Office is hostile to the students then the essence of being in an Ateneo University that provides Jesuit education is tarnished.

Some Updates on my Life


Hmm... let me see. For the past days I've been doing nothing but watch anime! I'm really bored. It's not that I'm getting sick of anime, I love anime but I'm getting bored of this repetitiveness. My soul is searching for school... oh no... did I just say what I said? I'm so missing school right now. But when I'm at school I'd hate it. Why can't I make up my mind?

I got my grades and I really can't believe I got such grades! I didn't even study that much... I don't feel that I'm deserving of such grades... Anyway, it's just a sign that we can actually do anything if we put our hearts and soul into it.

Oh yes for the anime part! I recommend Death Note! It's really cool (what a useless description hehehe). Death Note centers around a high school student who decides to rid the world of evil with the help of a supernatural notebook that kills anyone whose name is written in it. It has a very complex plot and it includes characters with great detective skills. This is a classic example of anime that would really make you think for a while hehehe. I love it! You should really watch it! It has a lot of twists and it really is a work of art.

Cactus Hug


Poor cactus... I can totally feel his pain...

Crossroads

I am now at the crossroad of my life. Before me lie roads that lead to my future. There are doors that are now left open but will soon close as time passes by. I am confused at which road I should take. Should I take the road less traveled or the road that everyone takes? My want for greatness and at the same time my desire for true happiness is tearing me apart. I have to choose one. It is true that we can’t take everything and that we do have to make sacrifices for one thing to work out.

People say that we may take different paths but it doesn’t matter because we will always be lead to what is destined for us. But I don’t agree… we shape our own destiny. We are the masters of our lives and fate has nothing to do with it.

I am scared of the future yes because I don’t know what will happen. But as with my past experiences, I learned that I cannot forever stay and be content with the present. Or worst, I should never linger with my past failures and stupid mistakes. Ok, I think I am repeating myself when I say that there is nothing wrong with committing mistakes, the crime would be not doing anything at all.

Life is so confusing… and why am I always writing about this stuff? Maybe it’s for me to constantly remind myself of my real priorities. I know that I am blessed and have more than others so I shouldn’t waste what the Lord has given me.

I will sail on for the future and everyone will see that I did reach somewhere great and honorable. Let us all reach for our dreams.

I am at such an inspired mood right now... I can picture myself already in a white coat giving orders around hehehe (I mean medicine orders ha?) Yup, I want to be a doctor. I'm still far away from that dream... but I'll try my best.

Being Hot-tempered Is So Uncool

Hmm… I wonder why people are so hot tempered these days? Hmm… This has totally been an eye-opener to me. In all the people who easily get mad and then would vent out their frustrations by saying awful things to someone, I see myself. I wonder why I just realized this now? I wonder why I am so thick headed that I would make hasty decisions like never ever speaking to a person that hurt me. Of course, it is an escape mechanism from being hurt but damn, I really should polish my conflict resolution skills.

I have been a very angry person, yes I have to admit this. I am so angry that I only bring pain and hurt into my life… buhuhu… well being angry sometimes is quite good to inform everyone that I am not to be messed with!

But really, being angry is not a good thing. It might lead to cardiovascular diseases and it is a big cause of stress, something that I have too much because of my chosen future career. And being angry clouds your ability to think rationally, plus for the fact that it gets you nowhere but more hurt and bigger conflicts.

So people, why not try to be more happy right? Smile and get a life… er… I mean have a happy life… if you know what I mean. Yes! I choose to be happy. And that means getting rid of stress factors… but doesn’t that mean saying good-bye to certain people? Hmm… Well, avoiding is one way to prevent any more conflicts, although you don’t really solve anything. But I am a happy person and I don’t intend to hold grudges. If people wants to reconcile then the better…

So… from now on… I decide to be happy… no more grudges… no more hating… and no more judging a person.

Hmm… let’s just see where life will lead me now… onwards with my life…

I am happy. I am at peace… and oh yes, I love myself.