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Sometimes you think you know the people that are close to you..but beware. Please excuse the graphic nature of how this story is told but I b

elieve it is necessary to highlight the
important lesson within.

Huwag Po Itay....

Nais kong ibahagi sa inyo ang namagitan sa amin ng aking itay isang gabi. Hinding-hindi ko
makakalimutan ang gabing iyon. Malakas ang ulan noon nguni't maalinsangan ang simoy ng hangin.

Ako ay nagsusuklay sa aking silid, katatapos ko pa lamang maligo at nakatapis pa lamang noon. Narinig kong kumakatok si Itay sa aking pinto. Nang sagutin ko ang pagkatok niya ay sinabi niya na kailangan daw naming mag-usap at humiling na papasukin siya. Binuksan ko ang pinto at siya'y kagyat na pumasok sa aking silid.

Laking pagkagulat ko nang ipinid niya at susian ang pinto. Hinawakan ni Itay ang aking mga kamay, hinaplos-haplos niya ang aking buhok, ang aking mukha, pinaraan niya ang kanyang mga daliri sa aking kilay, sa aking mga

pisngi,sa aking mga labi. Napasigaw ako.

"ITAY, huwag, huwag! Ako'y inyong anak! Utang na loob, Itay!" Nguni't parang walang narinig ang aking Itay. Ipinagpatuloy niya ang kanyang ginagawa. Ipinikit ko na lamang ang aking mga mata dahil ayaw kong makita ang mukha ng aking ama habang ipinagpapatuloy niya ang kanyang ginagawa sa akin.

Naririnig ko si Inay sumisigaw habang binabayo ang pinto at nagpipilit na ito'y buksan, "Hayop ka! hayop ka! Huwag mong gawin iyan sa an

ak mo! Huwag mong sirain ang kanyang kinabukasan".

Subalit wala ring nagawa si Inay, hindi rin siya pinakinggan ni Itay. Nanatili na lamang akong walang katinag-tinag at ipinaubaya ko na lamang ang aking sarili sa anumang gustong gawin ng aking Itay.

Pagkalipas ng ilang oras ay tumigil na rin ang aking Itay. Iniharap niya ako sa salamin ay ganoon na lamang ang aking pagkamangha at pagkagulat sa aking nakita. Magaling naman palang mag-make-up si Itay.

Nang gabing iyon ay nagtapat sa akin ang aking ama. Bakla pala siya. Labis akong nagalak sa
galing at husay ng aking ama. Naisip ko na matutuwa ang aking boyfriend dahil lalo akong gumanda ngayon. Niyakap ko si Itay at pareho kaming napaluha sa labis na kagalakan. Masaya na kami ngayon at nabubu

hay nang matiwasay.

Lovingly yours,

BADONG

DN Angel

I have finally watched DN Angel, the whole series! This is thanks to www.youtube.com and www.keiichianimeforever.com! The story is so cute and the plot becomes deeper and more interesting as the story progresses. I learned from the story that no one deserves to be alone because somewhere out there, there would be someone who would cherish our lives and existence in this world. No one deserves to be lonely because as the saying goes, there is always someone for everyone, just wait for them at the right time and at the right place.

I encourage everyone to watch this anime series. It’s really great!!!

Oh how I wish I could be like Daisuke Niwa who is such a great person. How I wish I was a person with a heart that is pure.

Busy Busy Busy

These days I have been always so busy! busy! busy! But I never exert that much effort in my studies at all these days but I still get so tired and stressed. Maybe I’m just suffering from a severe case of laziness because all I do when I reach my boarding house is sleep, sleep, sleep… I feel like Hitome in Vision of Escaflawne who just wants to sleep and fade away… hmm… fading away… this is what I want to happen to me someday… just fade away with no one ever noticing… I want to rest… Or maybe I just need strength. I need strength to be the best that I can be. I thought that I can find that kind of strength in someone else but I realize that I am the only one who can really draw that strength from me… It all relies on me…

Return Demo Tomorrow

I am so scared... actually I'm lying... I don't know why I still can afford to goof around even when I know that tomorrow is our return deminstration for the bed making... Is this a sign that I am so indolent?! Buhuhu... I hope not.

School has been tiring as usual but I am still surviving I think. My grades are satisfactory or fair but I'mnot satisfied at all. I know that I can do better but I just lack the energy to do things but starting now I will do all my best and I'll priorotize my studies over anything else.

I'm so sleepy already... I so lack sleep... ZzZzZ...

what's been happening

Life for me is bitter-sweet and I have learned to embrace anything and everything that life is all about. I'm still quite happy and I intend to be happy and I won't let stress wear me out. I have my special someone now to support me and keepmy spirits up.

It's been quite a while since my last post... things have been very crazy lately. But here I am now finding time to blurt all my feelings and ideas out hehehe....

My Headache

My head is pounding. I have a lot of things going through my head. I wonder if I have migraine or something because the pain is unbearable.

I have a lot of problems and they seem to pile up as the next school semester approaches. I need a fresh start but how can I have a fresh start when I already am carrying a lot of burden on my shoulders?

Speaking of weights, burdens, and baggage… I wish that I could move to another boarding house. I don’t want to move because of the people in my current boarding house because my landlords and board mates are great but I really need to find a place where I won’t be easily distracted. I’m doing all of this for my grades. The QPI requirement that I have to meet up has already become higher since I’m already in AHSE II so I need all the concentration I can get.

It’s really so hot today! The heat and my headache are driving me insane! There is no one I can talk to right now… I’m so sad…

Sound of Silence

This was such a beautiful day. The sun was shining brightly, the winds brought cool air, and the grass and plants were emerald green. The scene made me at peace. My soul was nourished and I felt great happiness and contentment. It was so peaceful and so quiet… well until this group of guys suddenly came out from nowhere and destroyed the very thing that I searched for, peace and quiet.

I really don’t understand teens these days. Do they have this allergic reaction or extreme hate for silence and tranquility? Is today’s youth so dulled and not to mention dumb-up by rock music or whatever they call the garbage they call music? Is the youth so used to noise that they don’t feel normal in its absence?

I am so disgusted with people who can’t shut up even for once in their life. Why can’t they be considerate enough to lower their voices so that they can’t disturb the people who want to run away from all the chaos in the world through silence?

Meditation and reflection is my way out but how can I find inner peace when stupid loudmouths surround me? Grrr!!!

Leave Me Alone

Fade away, just fade away

This is what I wish.

Let me be, let me breathe

Let me be who I want to be.

Set me free, let me fly

I hope my dreams do come true.

I want silence, I want peace.

Just go away and let me be.

Leave me alone, go away.

Disappear and don’t come back.

Leave me alone.

Leave me alone.

Some Secrets are Best Kept a Secret

We all have bones hidden in our closets, secrets that we try so hard to keep. Our secrets may be as old as a day or even as long as a lifetime, but one thing is sure, we never want anyone to dig up our secrets because it can bring embarrassment and can even ruin someone or worse ourselves.

We go through every measure to prevent this secret from being known, some even go to the extreme and may even kill people to protect a secret. But as they say, no secret is ever kept because the truth will always surface sooner or later.

I have a secret. I have been keeping it a secret for a long time. Some secrets are better locked up and buried for they only bring trouble.

What's happening to my Posts?

Hmm... I wonder wha'ts happening to my posts lately... I seem to be losing my touch. There's really nothing much happening to my life (well except love has won over me again) so I have nothing to post. I can post about my beloved Heaven but I would rather keep Heaven all to myself hehehe...

My blog looks like a mess! It has lyrics, some fragments of my thoughts, links, and some advertisements, hehehe...

But is there really a rule on how to post? I don't think so right? Well, I have to think about my readers (if I have readers that is) but this blog is all about me so I don't really care hehehe... Hahay... I'm really insane... si Heaven kasi... hehehe...