Fate

“Coincidence is but an illusion.
There is only fate.”

I have always believed that things happen for a reason. There are no accidents or mere coincidence. Everything that occurs is a chain reaction and an event is the result of than reaction. Life is like a wheel that continues on rolling and there is a path that we must follow. Life is a sequence of events.

But I also believe in free will. Fate can only bring us too far as to encounter a certain event but it is in our hands and our own choice to choose to have fate work or come into reality. This is just like meeting the girl/boy of your dreams, a person who is perfect. You met that person because of fate. But it’s up to you if you talk to that person or not. Either way your choices will lead you to another chain of events and so forth. We do have a choice, and every choice we make counts.

But one thing is for sure. Our death is inevitable. No choice we make can save us from death, and it is in this manner that fate takes hold of our life.

Things happen for a reason… but the reasons are unclear…

Words are Powerful

I have been watching xxxHolic lately and I want to share some learning that I have derived from it:

“Waves. Things that rise and fall.

Waves. Things that proliferate from a source.

Waves. Things that can’t be fought against.

Living things are restrained by Chains:

The laws of nature

The flow of time

The vessel known as your “body”

And the existence called your mind

The one chain that people can wield: WORDS.”

The waves that are mentioned here are words. As I interpret these statements, I have come up with this. There are many kinds of words. There are words that are positive and words that are negative. And these words come from one source: our own self. Words are powerful and they cannot be stopped. We as humans have many weaknesses and these may even inhibit us from reaching our full potentials. The laws of nature prevents us from doing some things like flying or being invisible for example. The flow of time restricts us from undoing what we have done in the past. Our bodies are fragile and it won’t last forever. And our mind has its own limitations. But words… we can use this for our own advantage. We can say that we can’t do something and we will definitely fail because we don’t have faith in our self. Or better yet we can say I can do this and things will turn out better. Negative words will only restrain your self. How will you know that something will turn out bad when you never tried? Nothing will be accomplished by being pessimistic.

“Words are living things. Chains can be used for more than tying down. They can be used to connect, and tie together. Looking forward and speaking positively makes all the difference.”

Words can bridge people together. Saying positive things will attract people to you and would be more at ease speaking with you and this will form a relationship between you two. How will you know people when you don’t talk to them because you already say that they dislike you?

“Words are amazing. However, words don’t only affect the one using them…”

But words can also come from other people. Other people can say hurtful things that could put you down.

“You are responsible for your own choices. So much pity when you are tied down. If you enjoy living like this, there’s no harm in staying tied down. Your immediate comfort is not telling yourself “everything will turn out great and the joy it brings when you’re right.”

But you can choose to be affected or not. You have the power to break free from the chains of negative words that other people throw at you. If you don’t like the things that people say to you then prove to them that they are wrong and stop yourself from unconsciously fulfilling the things that they say about you.

Words are really amazing. They can bring people together or they can bring us apart and even start disagreements. Words are like wild beasts that are once released cannot be taken back or controlled. Words can spread like wild fire and if it’s negative then be ready for things to get worst. That is why we should always think twice before we speak because it only takes a few seconds to say hurtful things but the impact on your relationship with the other person will last for a lifetime.

I can totally relate with this quotes from xxxHolic. But there are times that you must really speak out what you feel because the longer that you keep your anger and frustrations inside you, the feeling will grow and will end up in an ugly outburst and you will really regret it. This usually happen to the silent and kind type of people. They let people abuse them and they really become really angry when they lose it and may even end up killing the other person.

We can always use words to express ourselves but we must use them with tact so that we won’t offend others. Use words cautiously. We must be affirmative but never offensive…

Hmm… So much wisdom… I really love xxxHolic!

xxxHolic Review

I really have enjoyed watching xxxHolic. I haven't finished watching the series yet but I could say that it is a work of art. The graphics are excellent and the music is perfect. The combination of the two portrays a perfect world of magic and real life. CLAMP, the producer of the said anime, is really amazing. It really makes you think and your imagination can just run wild.

And who ever said animè isn't educational? Well xxxHolic can prove you wrong. It showcases the rich culture of Japan by embedding in the plot the different legends and myths in Japan. The way of life of Japanese people are shown and their different food, dresses, and customs are shown. It really amazes me how Japan can be so high-tech but they still are able to preserve their own identity, culture, and history.

Also xxxHolic is a perfect place to study philosophy and humanity as it exposes some morals and truths of what truly is being a human being. I will share some learning that I have derived in some of my other posts.

Totally amazing! I really love xxxHOLIC and I am quite inspired when I watch each episode that is full of wisdom and zest.

I rate it with a perfect five out of five! Why don’t you guys watch it and see for yourselves what I’m talking about.

Plot

The series' protagonist, Kimihiro Watanuki, is a high school student who is continually plagued by supernatural monsters (youkai) and spirits which are magically attracted to him. The creatures are invisible to all but him, and as a result he feels extremely burdened by them. When he quite literally stumbles into a shop that grants wishes, his life changes drastically.

Within the shop is the seductively beautiful Yūko Ichihara, a witch of many names and esoteric renown. The seemingly all-knowing witch soon gets down to business: she offers to grant Watanuki's wish to be rid of his ability to see spirits. However, a price equal to the power required to grant the wish must be paid. Yūko discovers that Watanuki is very skilled with his hands and a hard worker. As a result, Watanuki soon finds himself forced to perform housework and odd jobs for Yūko until he has done enough work for his wish to be granted.

Shortly afterwards, other characters become involved with Watanuki's position, including his love interest, Himawari Kunogi, and his "rival", Shizuka Dōmeki. The three become increasingly "friendlier", despite the amount of times Watanuki gets annoyed with Dōmeki's unflappable attitude.

Another recurring theme in the manga storyline is that Watanuki's growth and change will be because of his experiences of meeting one person. Yūko, according to a fortune teller in Volume 2, is the one that will change Watanuki. However, it's implied that he will be linked to both Yūko and Dōmeki and that all their connections were foreseen.

High School Musical 2 Phenomenon

Again Disney has made it big time with the big success of their sequel, High School Musical 2. Even it’s album was a great success reportedly “outselling Justin Timberlake and Beyonce and Rascal Flatts and everything else.” If you don't know what High School Musical is then I'm sorry to tell you that you really need serious updating with the happenings of the world.

I really enjoyed the movie and is definitely a show for the whole family because Troy and Gabriela did not even have a single kissing scene. The songs are better and the certain twists in the story are quite good. But I have to say that I liked Sharpay’s version of “You are the Music in Me” better than the one of Troy and Gabriela.

This movie is a great recommend to all of the people out there! A 5 out of 5 stars! Why? Just watch the damn movie to see how this Disney Original became such a phenomenon! If you missed High School Musical 1 & 2 then you should really watch the coming High School Musical 3!


Here’s the plot:

The summer brings jolly excitement to the East High Wildcats as they go over their plans for their break from school with the song "What Time Is It?". Troy Bolton (Zac Efron) stresses over getting a job with the price of college looming on his mind, as well as trying to make sure he and Gabriella Montez (Vanessa Hudgens) are able to stay together all summer. Sharpay and Ryan Evans (Ashley Tisdale and Lucas Grabeel) plan on spending the summer at their family's country club, Lava Springs ("Fabulous"). However, Sharpay's summer plan also includes separating Troy and Gabriella by getting Troy hired at Lava Springs. What Sharpay does not plan on is Troy talking the club's manager, Mr. Fulton (Mark L. Taylor), into hiring the rest of the Wildcats, including Gabriella and her best friend Taylor (Monique Coleman), and Troy's best friend Chad (Corbin Bleu). Fulton is unable to fire the Wildcats at Sharpay's command, since her mother (Jessica Tuck) approved their hiring, so she orders him to make them want to quit. Troy offers to help his friends working in the kitchen and convinces them that they can work their hardships out, in the song, "Work This Out".

Sharpay schemes harder than ever to make the Wildcats miserable, and win Troy, who has to choose between two worlds: his own with the Wildcats and Gabriella, or another where Sharpay's family can offer him a way to college and other luxuries he has only dreamed about. Kelsi writes a duet for Troy and Gabriella, but Sharpay steals the duet from the two of them and forces Troy to sing it with her, holding his future over his head. As Troy grows further away from Gabriella, Ryan is pushed further away from Sharpay. Taylor and Gabriella even invite Ryan to the baseball game, and Chad offers him Troy's place in the game. Troy and Gabriella's relationship is strained to the breaking point, as well as Troy's friendship with Chad.


When Sharpay finally crosses the line by banning the Wildcats from performing in Lava Springs' annual Star Dazzle Talent Show, even though Ryan has been working with the group to put together a performance, Gabriella confronts Sharpay. She makes it clear that she refuses to play Sharpay's "game", and quits her job at Lava Springs. Troy overhears the exchange and tries to convince Gabriella to change her mind. However, all she can think of is how much Troy has changed over the summer, and breaks up with him. She returns the necklace that Troy presented to her at the beginning of their relationship.

Gabriella's quitting causes Troy to see the person he has become and realize everything he has sacrificed. Finally when Gabriella breaks up with him he realises the mistakes he made and the people he hurt, especially Gabriella and Chad. His relationship with Gabriella was just blossoming and he blew it. As he sets out to make everything right again, Ryan gets help from the Wildcats to conspire to get Troy and Gabriella back together. They convince Troy to sing with Sharpay in the talent show - even though he'd quit citing her ban on junior staffers' participation in the show - which he does only under the condition that the Wildcats are allowed to perform as well. Sharpay relents, and the Wildcats put their plan into motion, finally getting Troy and Gabriella back together as they sing a duet together. Troy begins to sing and then he hears Gabriella's voice and looks around, surprised. She finally emerges from the back of the crowd behind the Wildcats. After the talent show, Troy, Gabriella, Sharpay, Zeke, Jason, Kelsi, Chad, Taylor, Martha, and Ryan all head out onto the golf course to enjoy the fireworks. Troy and Gabriella finally share their first kiss then Gabbriella pulls him closer then they hug, and the summer ends with a staff pool party and the Wildcats' celebration of a great summer together. Gabriella and Troy jump into the pool together. They swim for hours until then.

Realizations

As they say, “Man is an empty shell filled only with endless wants and desires…:

Actually, that’s just my saying. But my point is how do you differentiate the things you need from the things you want? Or better yet, the people you need and the people you desire?

Let us define the terms shall we?

need (nēd)
n.
1. A condition or situation in which something is required or wanted: crops in need of water; a need for affection.
2. Something required or wanted; a requisite: “Those of us who led the charge for these women's issues … shared a common vision in the needs of women” (Olympia Snowe).
3. Necessity; obligation: There is no need for you to go.
4. A condition of poverty or misfortune: The family is in dire need.

want (wŏnt, wônt)
n.
1. The condition or quality of lacking something usual or necessary: stayed home for want of anything better to do.
2. Pressing need; destitution: lives in want.
3. Something desired: a person of few wants and needs.
4. A defect of character; a fault.

Ok I am now more confused. But from my point of you need is something you can’t live without and want is something you can live without, such a simple definition don’t you think but it all fits.

There are things in my life that I want and there are things that I need. The problem is my wants is overpowering and overpowers my needs that I neglect and poorly prioritize things. I am quite aware that there are things and maybe even people perhaps that distract me from reaching my goals.

But again what are my goals? Ayayayay…. This is a complete dilemma.

But again you might ask what the connection is between wants and needs to priorities? Well, I see my needs as my priorities and my wants as complete nuisance.

My gosh… I really have to settle my priorities first before I turn to something I hate the most: a blood-sucking empty-headed dumb couch potato. Poor me…

Singing Blunders

People don’t actually know this but I have this incredible talent for singing (well it’s the only talent I have aside from being sarcastic, if being sarcastic is a talent). I really love singing, I feel that I am able to express my self through singing. It’s just a shame that people don’t have taste and can’t appreciate how a great singer I am hahaha.

I actually have been able to sing in front of a big audience. My singing career all began when I was still a young boy and I already sang in front of everyone inside a huge gym. Well I was still lip synchronizing and I was half boy and half girl at that time, if you understand the concept of singing both the guy and girl part (doble cara people… you know 2 faced?!). It was for a talent portion of a pageant (see I was born for greatness hahaha, I won 6 trophies). I also sang at school but my great talent was suppressed when I was in high school. I sang for the choir in first year after passing the audition with my singing style. But it was frustrating when my second year music teacher couldn’t comprehend my great talent in singing and my wonderful voice.

So here we are the present… I did try to redeem my self in college, trying to sing whenever there is a chance. I sang in KC’s debut, during English class, and could you believe I even sang infront of the class during Chemistry? Try to make the connection between chemistry and singing.

But some of my performances were not as perfect as one would expect of a genius that I am (hehehe). I am not proud to say but I did have several blunders. And here they are:

1. You think Christian Bautista was outrageously funny for forgetting the lines of the national anthem, well I forgot the lines of my school’s Xavier Hymn during 2 auditions… but come to think of it, why the hell did I sing the school song in an audition? What was I thinking?! I actually didn’t know if I got in or not hehehe… I lost interest in it. Plus I didn’t have the time.
2. I sang infront of 100 people in class the “My toes, my knees, my shoulder, my head” song… such shame…
3. I sang “Above All” in the community… You think I was emoting during the said prayer song… but the truth is I forgot the lines… major shame.
4. Another stupid song that I sang in the community: “May pato kong patuka-tuka, pakiwi-kiwi, pakuway-kuway…” with the matching actions people!!! Gosh why do I bring shame unto myself…
5. Did you know that I joined Pinoy Pop Superstar?! You ask why you didn’t see me on TV during the auditions? Well the truth is, I went to SM for the auditions but realized while waiting in line that my classy talent is unfit to be seen in that circus (hehehe).

I wonder if singing is really for me. People say that I have a nice voice and said I’m good in singing but wooh, things have been discouraging hehehe.

Maybe I’ll just concentrate on my second talent… being sarcastic? Nope. Acting… hehehe.

Blogging Again

It has been months since my last blog. It isn’t surprising though since I don’t need to vent all my anger perhaps even my misery on the net since I’m now able to handle some of my everyday frustrations.

So why am I blogging right now you ask? Well let’s just say I’m in the mood to talk some nonsense and Jake Long the American Dragon has inspired me to write.

So many days have gone and passed and so many things have happened. So many that I find it tiring to talk about all of them… but I’ll make a lazy summary of all that has transpired in my life in a silly list:

1. I was able to deliver and assist in a real delivery of a baby plus even did cord care to 4 babies consecutively!
2. Finals are over and Davao here I come for my psychiatric affiliation.
3. I quit being vice-president for the 3^rd Year Level student council.
4. My friend JM finally went to live in the states.
5. KC is sick…
6. I still hate people
7. I love my puppy Missy
8. I’m actually playing an online game
9. I love anime… currently waiting for more Naruto episodes
10. I’m naughty… such a shame
11. I got drunk before an exam…
12. I’m lazy and I hate it
13. I love money
14. I’m bored
15. I still love food

Hmm… actually I’m finally at the point where I am once again faced with the big question of what am I doing and why am I doing what I do now… Where am I heading and if life is worth the suffering huhuhu.

I hate my blogs they are so pathetic hahaha. Oh well, on with my life…

Puppy!

I really can't wait for August 27! Not only is this day great because there's no class but it is the day that one of my dreams and wishes would come true... to have a cute puupy hehehe.

I have always loved dogs (especially cute little puppies) and finally having one is one of life's simple joys. I used to have puppies before but unfortunately were sent away because of my brother who had asthma (and I hated him because of this).

The puppy isn't a pure breed but who cares, as long as it's a cute little puppy who I will play with when I go home every Saturday. I'm already thinking of the endless possibilities that I could do with my puppy (actually my mom's puppy cause technically she's the one who's getting one). I'm really going to take good care of it and I'll make sure that it will meet it's needs.

Can't wait to post pictures of the new puppy hehehe. ^_^

My 19th Birthday

August 12, 2007

Today I celebrated my 19th birthday. Today has been a special day for me indeed. As I continue journeying this path called life, I have been able to learn a lot of things. As I turn 19 today I am struck by the fact that I am almost reaching the age of young adulthood and I am going to leave behind my childhood. As always, as a new day starts, I am given a fresh start a new beginning. I am able to continue to mold my future and hope for the best.

I leave behind all my shadows, the bad memories, the hatred, the spite, the grudges, and my worst decisions in life. I may not be able to run away from my shadow, but I can always ignore it.

My past will not interfere with my future. I have done stupid things and have met aweful people but all of that doesn't matter now.

What matters is the future and what I can do in the present to reach that future. As I went through the day I was able to realized that I am truly blessed. I have a home where I can call my sanctuary with a family that loves me. I have friends who continue to stick by my side no matter what. I realize that in this world full of strangers, I have people whom I can call my own, I am not alone, I was never alone.

To all those who have made my day special and had made me feel special, thank you very much!

As i grow older, I will opt to be wiser. I won't destroy my future by making the wrong choices. But making the wrong choice may be unavoidable at times, but I will think twice before committing one.

I am proud to say that I have turned 19. I am more experienced and ready to face life's challenges. I am up to the challenge!

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