Reset Button

Who would have thought that I would get sick during the holiday. Yup I am so sick. I have fever and possibly pharyngitis (again). I just hate being sick, but then it's a good excuse to delay studying and doing other school stuff because of the reason: I'm sick. ^_^

But again I won't slack of because my grades are not so good. Lost my scholarship already and I'm not prepared to fail cause I promised my self I won't.

How nice it would be to have a reset button. Just yesterday I was sweating like crazy because my brother's mp4 won't turn on and I was afraid that my mom won't get me the laptop I wanted because the money would go to the repair of the said mp4 instead. Anyway lucky for me that the great mp4 had a reset button and everything went to normal without any data loss too.

How great it would be if we all had a reset button right? Then all those wasted time I had being idle would have been used for studying and I won't be at the edge of my seat fearing for the worst.

Ok. I'm being idle again, back to studying. I have to give more effort this time if I want to pass the dreaded course I chose. Darn it!

Ateneo de Davao Univeristy (ADDU)

This picture was taken last month (November) and I really like this pic. it shows that I have actually achieved one of my dreams and that is to visit ADDU. I have planned to visit ADDU when I was in Davao for our psychiatric affiliation but I was only able to visit my sister school when I came back to Davao for our medical examination.

being infront ADDU was a sense of accomplishment for me. Don't get me wrong I am a true blue Atenean. I have studied at Ateneo since high school. And if only I could already take care of myself and live alone during grade school then I would probably be studying in Xavier University Grade School (Ateneo de Cagayan). There's a lot of pride in me hehehe. But I do love my school. That's a fact.

I was about to write about my Davao experience but it's too lengthy and I'm a lazy bum hehehe. Anyway I wasn't really able to enter the campus since it's already dark and we were only there to buy some Pomelo from the sidewalk vendors infront of the school hahaha. Like we stopped at the side of the road (you can actually see my tita's car in the picture) and the vendors came to us (imagine that). We then decided to go out because we wanted to taste which vendor's pomelo is good (it was already more like eating if you ask me). The vendors really opened pomelos and gave each one of us. We then ofcourse bought a lot because the vendors would lose a lot because they really opened their products for us. I had a picture of the trash we left behind infront of Ateneo hahaha I am so bad.

Laptop Dilemma

I have wanted to get a laptop for so long. It’s already a proven fact that a laptop is a necessity and not just a want. A laptop is a need especially for a student nurse like me who constantly needs to be constantly updated and who need to research stuff.

I asked my Mom once if she could buy me one because my two laptops are unfortunately permanently out of order. To my dismay she asked what I need it for. We already have two computers in the house but I can’t really use them because I stay at a boarding house and it’s not time-efficient, not to mention cost-effective, to just come home to use the computer. Sure the school has computers and all but the laboratories open late and the computers are the library are constantly used by silly students who have no conscience and just use the computers there for opening their Friendster account. I understand that their tuition includes the use of the computers but it’s a library a place of learning not socializing.

I could also go to internet cafes but it would be such a hassle. Not to mention dangerous, an internet café is filled with strangers and possibly evil elements.

I asked my mom if I could bring my computer at home to the boarding house and she then told me that bringing a computer to the city would be difficult and all plus I had to pay for the additional electricity use. To my surprise she then told me that she would buy me a laptop instead. I was really overjoyed

I couldn’t sleep and I constantly keep on thinking about that laptop. I’m obsessed with the thought of actually having the laptop in my arms like it’s crazy. I’m already suffering; I’m in anguish having to wait for January to get my laptop.

Actually the waiting part is bearable but something awful came up. I have rummaged around the city for computer shops and it all came to two stores who had the laptops I want. One store had an installment plan but only had Neo laptops which is within my allotted budget. A Neo-Q Note Endura 540SLe to be exact:

Neo notebooks to be honest are cheap. So cheap that it makes you wonder if it would last a month or so. I have surfed the net and to my big dismay my speculations where right. Neo Enduras doesn’t endure at all. Some Neo customers had bought Neos and it only lasted for 8 months. There are a lot of complaints about it and the customer service is very poor. Like I am praying and hoping that my mom would reconsider and won’t buy me a Neo.

I am hoping that she buys me an Asus X51R series which doesn’t only have a faster processor (Intel Dual Core 1.86 Ghz) and many more superior features. It beats Endura on almost all aspect and it only is php 7,200 more expensive. If you ask me, I would rather buy a well-known brand from a doubtful one. But if ever I get a Neo, I would be sad but at least I get a laptop right? I’ll just have to be very careful with it and I would have to buy laptop fans because it easily heats up.

The second store has my dream laptop. An Acer Travelmate 5520! It actually is like the Asus X51R but only a bit faster with a superior graphics card. But I bet my mom would get me either an HP Compaq Presario C702TU or an Acer Aspire 4315 Notebook. They really have the same specs to each other (even with the Neo Endura 540SLe) but I would prefer the Acer from the three (HP, Acer Aspire, Neo). The HP may be a better brand but its design is sort of... uhm... square? The second store does have my laptop of preferences but they don’t have an installment plan. I doubt my mom would buy it directly with cold hard cash. But I do hope that things work out with the second store. My mom has some connections with the said store and she could arrange for something. But unfortunately the said person is on leave. I do hope that that person decides to return ASAP so that things will be worked out and then I can get my laptop (an Acer or HP, NOT a NEO, God forbids) by the second week.

I would rather wait for a month longer as long as I don’t get a Neo for a laptop.

I’m Sorry Meow-Meow

I did something really awful today and it really made me very sad. You see I was forced to take a little kitten away from our house. The story goes like this:

My puppy, Missy, was barking like crazy and she was very anxious, agitated, and wasn’t acting like herself.

I was investigating the cause of her anxiety when I heard a tiny “Meow”. And voila a baby kitten appeared hiding under some old tires. Missy was barking at it and I really admired the courage of the kitten who despite the big size of Missy, she still hissed and sort of tried to scratch Missy to defend herself (or himself).

I went near the kitten and called it and to my surprise it went near me. It sort of trusted me and I suddenly had a liking to the kitten. I honestly wanted to keep it and take care of it because she (he) was really small and I’m afraid for her safety. But I had to take her away because I love my puppy too and I don’t want her to be infected with rabbis from the cat. I had no choice and I caught her and dropped her (him) somewhere far, because if my father was the one to dispose of her, he would have done worst and I didn’t want to hurt the kitten.

I’m ashamed of what I did. But as long as I’m under the roof of my parents I can’t do anything and I really had to protect Missy. This situation is really depressing.

I’m Sorry That You’re Impoverished

I just hate some of my brother’s friends, if not completely all of them. I can’t fake it and act happy whenever they’re around the house and be hospitable and all because they define the epitome of “buwiysetas” or unwanted visitors. Like they have the nerve of saying this line: “I never thought that HE (referring to ME) would be here…” Like the HELL! I happen to live here you stupid b*tches. This happens to be my freaking home, this is my domain, my sanctuary, my abode, residence, and whatever you call a place you own and live in. Grrr! I hate them! If only I have the time and energy to throw them out of the house!

Some of them have the audacity to come to our house in the evening to use our computer. And for what? For checking their Friendster accounts and even for scanning their pictures of their hideous selves. Like don’t they have the decency to call ahead (that is if they have a phone, or send an SMS at least) or wait until morning to do their stupidness? My gosh, I don’t want to be rude like they are but don’t they have money to spend on internet cafes? Like do they understand the word PRIVATE or PRIVACY? My HOME is not a PUBLIC place where they can casually enter in the middle of the night! I don’t care if they can’t afford to buy their own PC or connect to the internet, or worst, can’t afford to rent a computer in an internet café. Don't get me wrong. I don't look down on them because they can't afford to buy a PC or connect to the internet, what I'm really against is that they have the nerve to go to our house acting as if they own it. How dare they impose themselves and barge in our house without any courtesy call?! How rude and undignified. But what would you expect from people of poor breeding.

I know that it’s Christmas and all but lately I have noticed that they have a negative influence with my brother and that triggers my hate mode. These bunch of delinquents lie to their parents about where they are going and they don’t even inform their parents that they’re not coming home. These are the group of youth that I can tag as a problem of society. Hell, my brother was even caught carrying marijuana (Cannabis) and who else would we blame but his stupid misfit friends. They have the foul excuse of having these prayer meetings during Sunday just to idle somewhere.

Dreamfall: The Longest Journey

Before reading the post I should warn you… this contain LOTS of spoilers. If you plan on playing the game don’t read this post.

Ah! I just finished the game and I was really disappointed! For a long journey that was pretty short! I mean there were some… I mean A LOT of questions left unanswered. It’s like watching a movie and is cut short. Like what happened to the other characters? What happened to April? Is she really dead? Will Kian be executed? Is the White Drake killed by Brian? Why is Reza not Reza? Why was the big ugly rich monster killed by his own minions? And why on earth would a mother allow her daughter to be in a comma? Is Zoe a real organic person or a clone or a sort of test tube baby?

The game’s plot is very interesting and it literally sucks you in to the story. It’s a great role-playing game and you are able to think and solve difficult puzzles (yeah, I cheated in some chapters of the game…). There is a sort of anti-church connotation here as represented by the “holy people” who wanted to convert “sinners” and bring them into the light and worship their “goddess” even if they have to use force. It does ring a bell doesn’t it? Not that I’m an anti-church person. The story line is so good! I feel like I’m watching a movie even if it’s a game. But the combat system does suck but who’s complaining? I’m not into the beat them up genre kind of gamer anyway.

I am so disappointed. Like Dreamfall is a masterpiece no doubt about it but what a bummer. I did enjoy the game, I just hate the ending.

Just Go Away and Die

This is a song that I made and sang myself. Just listen to it if you want to.

Artists in the Making

I was never enthusiastic about the idea of studying art and all but once I had started thinking and creating what we call art I finally realized that art is not that bad.

But I don't work alone, I have a group called "Naning" short for "Naningkamot" or meaning trying our best. None in the group is a professional artist or excel in drawing or paintng but we each played a part in conceptualizing to create a masterpiece.

Here are some of our latest work:

"SELDA"

Selda is a paintng about a man who was wrongfully accused and thrown into jail to serve his life-sentence. If you would notice the man's eyes, it is the eyes of an innocent man who is saddened and who is suffering in his current situation. He wants to break free but can't.

This painting could also symbolize our potentials that we don't want to be tapped or prevent from being tapped. For example, we can sing well but we constantly put ourselves down and think negatively so the outcome would naturally be a failure.

"FACADE"
Facade is about a girl who is naturally kind and good-hearted but because of a society (as symbolized by the sun) that is chaotic and complex she must wear a mask to serve as a defense mechanism. In this modern society, if you show your self as someone weak and defenseless people will naturally take advantage of you and manipulate you. That is why the girl is trying to convey a strong image so that she won't be taken advantage of.

Man is intrinsically good but in a society where evil is more dominant, the people in that society are more likely to adapt to survive. They adapt by being more defensive and selfish... self-preservation.

"CRIMINAL MIND"
This painting symbolizes a corrupt society where the government officials are working together with drug lords and prostitutes and other evil elements (as symbolized by the 4 heads on the wall). The time setting is during the night time because this is the time of the day where most evil elements (drug pushers, stealers, etc) work. The man who is about to step into the darkness symbolizes the innocent people who are about to die or about to be used by the politicians or drug lords to do their dirty work. The wall symbolizes the current situation of society, destroyed and stained by blood due to many people dying. The triangular eyes represent the media and society who are either apathetic, too coward to unveil the truth, or the media who exaggerate things making the current situation worse.

The starry night sky is a glimmer of hope because the stars symbolize people who are willing to do everything that they can to change the current situation of society.

God created everything... including evil

A University professor at a well known
institution of higher learning
challenged his students with this
question. "Did God create everything
that exists?"

A student bravely replied, "Yes he
did!"

"God created everything?" The
professor asked.

"Yes sir, he certainly did," the
student replied.

The professor answered, "If God
created everything; then God created
evil. And, since evil exists, and
according to the principle that our
works define who we are, then we can
assume God is evil."

The student became quiet and did not
answer the professor's hypothetical
definition. The professor, quite
pleased with himself, boasted to the
students that he had proven once more
that the Christian faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and
said, "May I ask you a question,
professor?"

"Of course", replied the professor.

The student stood up and
asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"

"What kind of question is this? Of
course it exists. Have you never been
cold?"

The other students snickered at the
young man's question.

The young man replied, "In fact sir,
cold does not exist. According to the
laws of physics, what we consider cold
is in reality the absence of heat.
Every body or object is susceptible to
study when it has or transmits energy,
and heat is what makes a body or
matter have or transmit energy.
Absolute zero (-460 F) is the total
absence of heat; and all matter
becomes inert and incapable of
reaction at that temperature. Cold
does not exist. We have created this
word to describe how we feel if we
have no heat."

The student continued, "Professor,
does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it
does."

The student replied, "Once again you
are wrong sir, darkness does not exist
either. Darkness is in reality the
absence of light. Light we can study,
but not darkness. In fact, we can use
Newton's prism to break white light
into many colors and study the various
wavelengths of each color.

You cannot measure darkness. A simple
ray of light can break into a world of
darkness and illuminate it. How can
you know how dark a certain space is?
You measure the amount of light
present. Isn't this correct? Darkness
is a term used by man to describe what
happens when there is no light
present."

Finally the young man asked the
professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor
responded, "Of course, as I have
already said. We see it everyday. It
is in the daily examples of man's
Inhumanity to man. It is in the
multitude of crime and violence
everywhere in the world. These
manifestations are nothing else but
evil.

To this the student replied, "Evil
does not exist, sir, or at least it
does not exist unto itself. Evil is
simply the absence of God. It is just
like darkness and cold, a word that
man has created to describe the
absence of God. God did not create
evil. Evil is the result of what
happens when man does not have God's
love present in his heart. It's like
the cold that comes when there is no
heat, or the darkness that comes when
there is no light."

The professor sat down.

The young man's name - Albert Einstein